Last day on earth...-tagged

To be frank..i always wanted to die young ,im really scared to get old. When Shravan tagged to write about the last day of ma life..i had this thought running on ma mind,how can i leave this beautiful world without achieving my dreams? i wanted to see the next sunrise soo badly and i really don't feel like dying young now,thanks 2 shravan

So now i know that tomorrow is the last day of ma life..taking it to my heart,i write..

I would try to get up as early as possible,4.00 am would do..i have never seen that time till now(i wouldn't need any alarm to get up coz i won't get sleep at all)i will study for about one hour for sure(has been ma dream to wake up early and study @ this time atleast once)It is a good start though it is leading to my end"..then prepare coffee for my mom,sit beside her for a while,give her ma last kiss.touch her feet and leave without waking her up...I will take take ma ipod,ma cell and im really sad... mine is a desktop,else i would take that too.. (gadgets that i can't live without!) I will walk enjoying the cool breeze,with ma favorite track playing..it's my life..dunno howmany miles il feel like walking today..i will watch the mass and pray for forgiving all ma sins and to give a small lil place for me in heaven..

I would go for meeting my best friend S now,i wana enjoy every single minute of ma last day..i won't tell her about ma death,i wanna see her smiling always.I will rock with her completely for 2 hrs...then i will call upon all my dear friends and give them a huge treat @pizza corner and have all those junks i would die for..i would iritate all of them,crack all possible jokes i know and take lots f piczz with them and ask them 2 check whenever they miss me :) i always wanted to own a corolla(im not rich enough to buy 1 now,so il take it for rent) and go for a long drive...I would call every guy  who proposed me and tell that im really sorry and  to please consider me as their friend..

I would go and check out ma blog and write my final post and scrap all my orkut friends a final goodbye..

 Now the remaining time i wana spent with the person i love,so that i could die in his arms.I would pick him up,asking him to come along for shopping.I would ask him 2 select a dress of his choice(so that i could see him lose his nerves for the last time then!) i would love to hav tea in the rain(if it rained then)..and then go for a final make over.Go for the final date with him,wearing the dress which he selected..dance with him to the song-"breathless from the corrs" and whisper in his ears  that..i need you and i love you

It is eve..i would go for a drive to  the beach then,playing music really aloud and singing along...i love the fragnance of the salty winds and today il love it more.I would jump on the bonnet and see the last sunset of my life with him..i would drink champagne,play guitar..then count the stars with him,shout aloud that ..."i love my life and im not afraid to die.." finally lay ma head on his shoulders, with his fingers clutched in my hand ..telling him my final words..smiling

" i have always loved you and will love you after my death too..tell me that you will never leave me and you will love me forever,i wanna hear that ..i will miss you like hell,take care "

# update: i won't never ever read this post..im getting scared thinking about 

i would like to tag  4 terrific bloggers: let me see whether you dare enough to write about ya last day...and plz roll over the tag...

so here we go..

 1. deeps...    

 2. Anand...     

 3.JoHn @ blogger's paradise .

 4.Mahesh Sindbandge

To my dear mom..

Dear momie..

I wana thank you for giving me soo much of love and taking care of me,for forgiving me everytime,i fought with you,for allowing me to make silly reasons,for being with me when i cried,for sharing ma joys,for inspiring me when i was down..for loving me the way im,even if i was a hell lot of trouble

  

      Even if i couldn't be the best daughter in this world,i always wanted to keep you happy and i promise you that i will never let you down.you are my best friend and the prettiest gal i have ever known.Wishing you a happy mother's day.love you lots...

your naughty gal

i gave this note to ma mom ,i wanted to gift her something,so i gave her a sweet kiss and she was in tears ...

really din't want to make you cry mom...i told and gave her a hug

she smiled..

and i told,that is more like my momie,love you!:)

i was really glad that it was sunday,so that i could spent a lot of time with her..today i din't make her call my name a hundred times for doing some works,helped her with everything she did,cooking,cleaning and washing and all..and im a horrible cook! Talked with her long for a long time and gave her company to watch all her favorite shows on tv.im glad that i could keep her happy, this mother's day..so what did you do for ya mom today??

A time for friends...

Ever imagined a life alone,with no friends to give you a company?? you could try staying like that for two days but i bet you can't go on for more than a week..

Friends play an important role in our lives..sometimes,busy times hit us soo hard that we drown in our own lives and forget about all those who made our life perfect. They might be longing for your calls,for your scraps and your msgs,don't let them down..a single 'miss you' of yours can bring a sweet smile on their faces,a hug of yours can cheer them up

I remember those school days where me n ma best friend S used to play pranks..ours was a difficult relation.We fought whole day for silly reasons and in the  evening went home,hand in hand..noone couldn't ever replace her.You can have plenty of friends,who practically know nothing about you or can have a few friends who can even understand you in every state of ya life and will be there for you always..

*it happened to 2 of ma friends!!

There might be times when 2 close friends liked the same guy,but didn't tell each other..but only later,came to know that he was already engaged.

let me dramatise the situation,like if it was me n S..

me:   yar,im really sad..:(

S:      so am i i da,what hapend to you?

me:   see i liked this guy(some name),was crazy about him and now i came to know he is engaged!

S:      (shocked) itz ok dear..we can't find someone else better.cheer up da

          well,me 2 liked the same guy,ha,never mind:(

me:    oh,shit..ha,leav it :(

S:       well,he don't look much good..i don't like his eyes

me:    i don't lik it either..he is not tall enough!

both giggle...:)

S:       lets go and have an ice cream

me:    ya da,i want a cornetto..

*the end of all ya senti feelings !! 

Don't ever lose them,they can make you cry,can get you in trouble,can make you lose your nerves,can screw you up..but you can never be really angry on them,you always had enjoyed those moments...they are the only ones who can vanish your tensions..who can raise your spirits and ever won't let others to speak a single word bad, about you..So if you haven't called your friends for long,itz time to tell them that how much they mean to you!! 

 And this is for all ma dear friends...thanks for being with me,for understanding me,for tolerating me..and please, you can shout at me,you can hit me..but don't ever leav me,don't even dare!

can't imagine a life without you guyz.. tu nahi ho tho kaun hey mera??love you all..:)

#update:

every1 has a best friend during each stage of lyf..only lucky 1ns have d same friend in all stages of life!

Feeling blue?

I was feeling really down..there was no support,no inspiration and all negative thoughts were running on ma mind.I felt lik flying off somewhere,tired of this life,tired of these ups and downs..

people randomly fall to this state i guess,all of a sudden you feel all lost,you are damn angry or damn tensed,you feel like watever you are thinking and doing is going wrong..feel lik plucking of ya hair from ya head,am i exaggerating a bit? well i had 3/4th of these emotions and the state is really awful! 

i read a hell lot of novels, horror stories,adventures,personality stuffs and all.but i never ever went through books on positive thinking.My brother R a huge fan of these, brought plenty of such stuffs and they were all lying in my shelf, untouched!! i was all nutz and i wanted a change. i went through one of those...norman vincent peale...why some positive thinkers get powerful results

there was around 168 pages,i dint feel lik reading it all and i juz ran through the pages..and in one of the pages ,i found these lines..

i read them once and i felt like reading them again and i found them special..i thought of sharing it with you guys

i like me..i believe in me

i was created by god who never made anything badly..

his creation is wonderful

so i am wonderful..

divine perfection is within me

i love life,i love people

i have ability,i can do things well

i am happy,i am grateful

i treat maself with respect

as a child of god i belive in me..

doesn't that make you feel good..it certainly rose ma spirits.Mr.Norman belives that if you sent out negative thoughts,they will return back to you..but if you sent out robust thoughts of faith,hope and optimism,positive thoughts will come surging back..so i keep ma fingers crossed,with positive thoughts filling ma mind and soul..

 And if ya feel like hearing some cool music to refresh yourself,check out when it rains from paramore. dedicated to djj,who gives me the list of his favorite tracks to tune in2.. cheers:)

Personality traits # 2- what do your eyes convey?

Ma first post was about personality traits and here comes a little bit of body language-it is with the way we look at people.Eyes are considered to show emotion,but do they really show that? i feel that the emotional impact of eyes occurs because of their use and the use of face around them.

With the length of glance,opening of eyelids,by squiting ..any meaning can be sent out

* with unfamiliar people- it is better  not to stare at  them.but to make them into people rather than objects  we must avoid ignoring them. generally we look at them ,not long enough with our eyes conveying ..i know you are there but i dont wanna intrude into your privacy.

*on passing encounter-when we meet someone while passing the street,we give a quick look at them,then turn our face down or away.this gives a message that,i have seen you and im not afraid of you

*suppose you are wearing these dark glares with the intention that you can stare as much you feel like and no one would know that you are on watch,itz just a  mere self deception .To the other person,dark glares indicate that the wearer is always staring at him...so better dont walk  around with dark glares!

*in trains and buses- we meet lots of people..we look them briefly without locking glances..here we say with our looks that..i dont know who you are but i dont intend to stare at you

so be carefull with ya looks..will come up with more of this kind soon,hope you guys liked it.chill out dudes!

do i luk as if i care?

 Don't give me your fake promises

 i know they don't worth a penny..

 

don't tell me that you can't be with me anymore

just wana remind you that u were never there..

don't think that i will cry for you

i won't even shed a single tear...

don't try to walk ahead of me

i wil be always a step ahead of you ...

don't tell me to get lost

i have already flown away far from you..

don't make silly reasons

i know they are all lies..

don't tell me that it was all your mistake

as if you were never wrong...

and don't tell me that i dumped you

 you worth it!!

#it was written when there was no power at ma home,i had nothing to do and i was all nutz...

A smal bus journey of mine...

i love travelling alone..and after much days i really got to travel alone in a bus.bus journey is fun,if  you closely observe you can see a variety of people with different characters.Some of them gain your attention by their attitude like getting inside the bus pushing every1 off..some bcz of their dressing style..n some with their charming looks. the journey was lovely with the breeze touching ma cheeks and the wind blowing off ma hair,i felt like touching the blue sky above

After 10 mints or so..a lady got in along with a kid,the kid was sleeping hugging her tight.from the first sight i felt that she is a nurse  working abroad..i couldn't see the kids face.After few minutes the kid got up..he was such a lovely boy with red cheeks,he looked foreign..he was looking all around with half opened eyes.i was looking at the kid,he saw me looking..wel he took of his eyes immedaiatly. i thot.."hey,this kid got the attitude ya!

how cute kids are nah?they just take off your mind from everything happening around and we just drown ourselves in them.. 

1 lady got in along with 2 young girls..i just noticed 1 gal..she was a bit short and was finding it difficult to balance in the bus.i was siting in the side seat and after few minutes she was almost falling on me. she was cute n lil gundu type.but her eyes was having some problems and i realised only after some time that she was blind.

she was smiling to all and i felt sad seeing her.i really thanked god for giving me vision and i really dint mind even if it was a lil blurred! i had to get dwn @ the next stop..and i wanted her 2 sit in ma place,there was a huge rush in the bus.ma stop was about to arrive and this gal immediatly went towards the steps..i was blank for a sec,her mom shouted.."wer are you rushing to? i told you nah" n blah blah..her voice was very rough and i dint find the slightest affection in her words..

poor gal,she was almost in tears..i got down and finally she too.i couldn't do anything i just watched her till she was out of reach,she walked in hands with her sister. i feel that the blind should be given proper care and attention,just ignoring them won't do...so that they will be able to live by their own,nowadays a no of blind people are living by earning themselves.i still pity that kerala having the highest literacy rate still have people who dont bother to take care of their kids no matter they are handicaped or in proper health..