2 Mj n 2 ma bench mates....

Back in blogsvilla after a month.....the most shocking incident of the month would be MJ's death..i never read newspapers,so it was ma friend who informed that he is no more..

i was like ..hey,don't lie in the very morning. she finally gave me the newspaper so that i believe. He is such a talented superstar.the first english track i listened to was his thriller...it was simply awesome.i love almost all his tracks and ma mom loves his 'beat it'...though he is no more,his tracks will keep him immortal...you will rock forever MJ

Our s4 is on the verge of an end..all internals and labs are done,with just the universities remaining..

it was a time for friends..i usually sit in the first bench along with Bim n Mumthu,now dont ever dare to think that that 1st benches are reserved for bhujjis.we ask all kinda silly crazy doubts,never give away any right answers, have fun, chat, listen 2 lectures..and do all kinda nonsense being there.But i think im the only one who dont mind sleeping siting there...only once i was caught ...:) it's that i bunk clases only for sleeping.once i was drawing lines,while mam was dictating notes in ma short so called 'nap' during an aftrnun hour and ma benchmates were enjoying all the fun..i was falling in between,looking around..again sleepin.they love me in this unstable state..and they used to imitate me when im back to senses.well,i love siting between them..though both of them push me to the middle seat.. they both fight for silly things and their pinches n slaps and all.. are tolerated by me..

the other common point about us is that we are always hungry and can run 2 canteen at any time,even in btw classes:P. we comment on guys,we learn..we gossip,we iritate..we are the world..i love being with these two fellas.wish we stay friends like this forever..dedicated to you guys..love you both..

though im not sleepy right now..im really in a state which made me feel like scribbling these lines...

* wish i had wings..

wana fly away from all those who make me cry....

make me desperate..

make me feel insecure and hopeless..

wish god gave me wings...

so that i can fly n fly...

and touch the lovely blue sky...*

Love you joan...

Joan jett..the best rock girl ever..she rose to fame in the 70's all-girl rock band-the runaways ...she started her own record label,the blackhearts because noone was ready to sign them..

She was ranked #32 on vh1's greatest women of rock n roll.Her single "i love rock n roll" went #1 on the billboard charts in 82(the original track was from 'the arrows' though)she blasted the song off.She was nominated for the best vocal performance for the song-" i hate myself for loving you"..which is my all time favorite

the lyrics goes this way...

i think of you every night and day...

you took my heart n you took my pride away..

i hate myself for loving you..

can't break free from the things you do..

i wana walk but i run back to you..

thats why i hate myself for loving you...!

After hearing this song ,you will feel much better if you aren't sure whether you love someone or hate him that much..it leads to another track,' when love and hate collide' from creed...Joan is such a power woman ..in every manner and this track is really classey! so don't forget to check it out in you tube,you can  find her everywhere almost :P. Britney actually had a cover of her song,i love rock n roll..and i can swear an hundred times that noone the hell can beat joan,she is simply the best

So im really back after alot many dayz..i was down with viral fever for 1 whole week and tomorrow im getting back 2 my college hostel..but as every col student feels...you wana be @ college when you are having holidays..and when the holidays are gona end u wana stay home!

well...the grass is always green on the other side! :) so c yu guyz soon...keep chilling,enjoy ya life..dream alot and aim high...

will miss yu all... :(

Recession..has hit whom??

Recession ....it is the hottest article in the newspaper nowadays... it will take an year or more for the situation to get fine..

To an extend it has hit the working class really hard.Either people are kicked off their jobs one morning or are forced to work @ a minimal salary...who is to blame? Even people with experience is given no consideration...

It is difficult for people who lived in high standards of life to switch to a lower one all of a sudden..people  who thought of purchasing the latest skoda finds themselves satisfied with a simple nano..shifting from huge flats to small appartments and so many such uninvited troubles..even a pg student finds it difficult to find a job these days..hope we can expect the situation to be in hand soon else mere living will turn out to be a difficult issue for the working class

I have been seeing mtv fab life lately..i found that even now all the celebs go for splendid farmhouses ,latest mercedes E,F..(whatever classes) They earn crores for a single advertisement,should they be paid this huge? hasn't the recession hit the film industry..??

cricket is given a lot of respect in our country..all are under the IPL sensation..

it is truely a spirit i agree.However when the common man finds it difficult to live..should they given this importance?do they worth ya precious time..??i leav it for you to answer... 

Last day on earth...-tagged

To be frank..i always wanted to die young ,im really scared to get old. When Shravan tagged to write about the last day of ma life..i had this thought running on ma mind,how can i leave this beautiful world without achieving my dreams? i wanted to see the next sunrise soo badly and i really don't feel like dying young now,thanks 2 shravan

So now i know that tomorrow is the last day of ma life..taking it to my heart,i write..

I would try to get up as early as possible,4.00 am would do..i have never seen that time till now(i wouldn't need any alarm to get up coz i won't get sleep at all)i will study for about one hour for sure(has been ma dream to wake up early and study @ this time atleast once)It is a good start though it is leading to my end"..then prepare coffee for my mom,sit beside her for a while,give her ma last kiss.touch her feet and leave without waking her up...I will take take ma ipod,ma cell and im really sad... mine is a desktop,else i would take that too.. (gadgets that i can't live without!) I will walk enjoying the cool breeze,with ma favorite track playing..it's my life..dunno howmany miles il feel like walking today..i will watch the mass and pray for forgiving all ma sins and to give a small lil place for me in heaven..

I would go for meeting my best friend S now,i wana enjoy every single minute of ma last day..i won't tell her about ma death,i wanna see her smiling always.I will rock with her completely for 2 hrs...then i will call upon all my dear friends and give them a huge treat @pizza corner and have all those junks i would die for..i would iritate all of them,crack all possible jokes i know and take lots f piczz with them and ask them 2 check whenever they miss me :) i always wanted to own a corolla(im not rich enough to buy 1 now,so il take it for rent) and go for a long drive...I would call every guy  who proposed me and tell that im really sorry and  to please consider me as their friend..

I would go and check out ma blog and write my final post and scrap all my orkut friends a final goodbye..

 Now the remaining time i wana spent with the person i love,so that i could die in his arms.I would pick him up,asking him to come along for shopping.I would ask him 2 select a dress of his choice(so that i could see him lose his nerves for the last time then!) i would love to hav tea in the rain(if it rained then)..and then go for a final make over.Go for the final date with him,wearing the dress which he selected..dance with him to the song-"breathless from the corrs" and whisper in his ears  that..i need you and i love you

It is eve..i would go for a drive to  the beach then,playing music really aloud and singing along...i love the fragnance of the salty winds and today il love it more.I would jump on the bonnet and see the last sunset of my life with him..i would drink champagne,play guitar..then count the stars with him,shout aloud that ..."i love my life and im not afraid to die.." finally lay ma head on his shoulders, with his fingers clutched in my hand ..telling him my final words..smiling

" i have always loved you and will love you after my death too..tell me that you will never leave me and you will love me forever,i wanna hear that ..i will miss you like hell,take care "

# update: i won't never ever read this post..im getting scared thinking about 

i would like to tag  4 terrific bloggers: let me see whether you dare enough to write about ya last day...and plz roll over the tag...

so here we go..

 1. deeps...    

 2. Anand...     

 3.JoHn @ blogger's paradise .

 4.Mahesh Sindbandge

To my dear mom..

Dear momie..

I wana thank you for giving me soo much of love and taking care of me,for forgiving me everytime,i fought with you,for allowing me to make silly reasons,for being with me when i cried,for sharing ma joys,for inspiring me when i was down..for loving me the way im,even if i was a hell lot of trouble

  

      Even if i couldn't be the best daughter in this world,i always wanted to keep you happy and i promise you that i will never let you down.you are my best friend and the prettiest gal i have ever known.Wishing you a happy mother's day.love you lots...

your naughty gal

i gave this note to ma mom ,i wanted to gift her something,so i gave her a sweet kiss and she was in tears ...

really din't want to make you cry mom...i told and gave her a hug

she smiled..

and i told,that is more like my momie,love you!:)

i was really glad that it was sunday,so that i could spent a lot of time with her..today i din't make her call my name a hundred times for doing some works,helped her with everything she did,cooking,cleaning and washing and all..and im a horrible cook! Talked with her long for a long time and gave her company to watch all her favorite shows on tv.im glad that i could keep her happy, this mother's day..so what did you do for ya mom today??

A time for friends...

Ever imagined a life alone,with no friends to give you a company?? you could try staying like that for two days but i bet you can't go on for more than a week..

Friends play an important role in our lives..sometimes,busy times hit us soo hard that we drown in our own lives and forget about all those who made our life perfect. They might be longing for your calls,for your scraps and your msgs,don't let them down..a single 'miss you' of yours can bring a sweet smile on their faces,a hug of yours can cheer them up

I remember those school days where me n ma best friend S used to play pranks..ours was a difficult relation.We fought whole day for silly reasons and in the  evening went home,hand in hand..noone couldn't ever replace her.You can have plenty of friends,who practically know nothing about you or can have a few friends who can even understand you in every state of ya life and will be there for you always..

*it happened to 2 of ma friends!!

There might be times when 2 close friends liked the same guy,but didn't tell each other..but only later,came to know that he was already engaged.

let me dramatise the situation,like if it was me n S..

me:   yar,im really sad..:(

S:      so am i i da,what hapend to you?

me:   see i liked this guy(some name),was crazy about him and now i came to know he is engaged!

S:      (shocked) itz ok dear..we can't find someone else better.cheer up da

          well,me 2 liked the same guy,ha,never mind:(

me:    oh,shit..ha,leav it :(

S:       well,he don't look much good..i don't like his eyes

me:    i don't lik it either..he is not tall enough!

both giggle...:)

S:       lets go and have an ice cream

me:    ya da,i want a cornetto..

*the end of all ya senti feelings !! 

Don't ever lose them,they can make you cry,can get you in trouble,can make you lose your nerves,can screw you up..but you can never be really angry on them,you always had enjoyed those moments...they are the only ones who can vanish your tensions..who can raise your spirits and ever won't let others to speak a single word bad, about you..So if you haven't called your friends for long,itz time to tell them that how much they mean to you!! 

 And this is for all ma dear friends...thanks for being with me,for understanding me,for tolerating me..and please, you can shout at me,you can hit me..but don't ever leav me,don't even dare!

can't imagine a life without you guyz.. tu nahi ho tho kaun hey mera??love you all..:)

#update:

every1 has a best friend during each stage of lyf..only lucky 1ns have d same friend in all stages of life!

Feeling blue?

I was feeling really down..there was no support,no inspiration and all negative thoughts were running on ma mind.I felt lik flying off somewhere,tired of this life,tired of these ups and downs..

people randomly fall to this state i guess,all of a sudden you feel all lost,you are damn angry or damn tensed,you feel like watever you are thinking and doing is going wrong..feel lik plucking of ya hair from ya head,am i exaggerating a bit? well i had 3/4th of these emotions and the state is really awful! 

i read a hell lot of novels, horror stories,adventures,personality stuffs and all.but i never ever went through books on positive thinking.My brother R a huge fan of these, brought plenty of such stuffs and they were all lying in my shelf, untouched!! i was all nutz and i wanted a change. i went through one of those...norman vincent peale...why some positive thinkers get powerful results

there was around 168 pages,i dint feel lik reading it all and i juz ran through the pages..and in one of the pages ,i found these lines..

i read them once and i felt like reading them again and i found them special..i thought of sharing it with you guys

i like me..i believe in me

i was created by god who never made anything badly..

his creation is wonderful

so i am wonderful..

divine perfection is within me

i love life,i love people

i have ability,i can do things well

i am happy,i am grateful

i treat maself with respect

as a child of god i belive in me..

doesn't that make you feel good..it certainly rose ma spirits.Mr.Norman belives that if you sent out negative thoughts,they will return back to you..but if you sent out robust thoughts of faith,hope and optimism,positive thoughts will come surging back..so i keep ma fingers crossed,with positive thoughts filling ma mind and soul..

 And if ya feel like hearing some cool music to refresh yourself,check out when it rains from paramore. dedicated to djj,who gives me the list of his favorite tracks to tune in2.. cheers:)

Personality traits # 2- what do your eyes convey?

Ma first post was about personality traits and here comes a little bit of body language-it is with the way we look at people.Eyes are considered to show emotion,but do they really show that? i feel that the emotional impact of eyes occurs because of their use and the use of face around them.

With the length of glance,opening of eyelids,by squiting ..any meaning can be sent out

* with unfamiliar people- it is better  not to stare at  them.but to make them into people rather than objects  we must avoid ignoring them. generally we look at them ,not long enough with our eyes conveying ..i know you are there but i dont wanna intrude into your privacy.

*on passing encounter-when we meet someone while passing the street,we give a quick look at them,then turn our face down or away.this gives a message that,i have seen you and im not afraid of you

*suppose you are wearing these dark glares with the intention that you can stare as much you feel like and no one would know that you are on watch,itz just a  mere self deception .To the other person,dark glares indicate that the wearer is always staring at him...so better dont walk  around with dark glares!

*in trains and buses- we meet lots of people..we look them briefly without locking glances..here we say with our looks that..i dont know who you are but i dont intend to stare at you

so be carefull with ya looks..will come up with more of this kind soon,hope you guys liked it.chill out dudes!

do i luk as if i care?

 Don't give me your fake promises

 i know they don't worth a penny..

 

don't tell me that you can't be with me anymore

just wana remind you that u were never there..

don't think that i will cry for you

i won't even shed a single tear...

don't try to walk ahead of me

i wil be always a step ahead of you ...

don't tell me to get lost

i have already flown away far from you..

don't make silly reasons

i know they are all lies..

don't tell me that it was all your mistake

as if you were never wrong...

and don't tell me that i dumped you

 you worth it!!

#it was written when there was no power at ma home,i had nothing to do and i was all nutz...

A smal bus journey of mine...

i love travelling alone..and after much days i really got to travel alone in a bus.bus journey is fun,if  you closely observe you can see a variety of people with different characters.Some of them gain your attention by their attitude like getting inside the bus pushing every1 off..some bcz of their dressing style..n some with their charming looks. the journey was lovely with the breeze touching ma cheeks and the wind blowing off ma hair,i felt like touching the blue sky above

After 10 mints or so..a lady got in along with a kid,the kid was sleeping hugging her tight.from the first sight i felt that she is a nurse  working abroad..i couldn't see the kids face.After few minutes the kid got up..he was such a lovely boy with red cheeks,he looked foreign..he was looking all around with half opened eyes.i was looking at the kid,he saw me looking..wel he took of his eyes immedaiatly. i thot.."hey,this kid got the attitude ya!

how cute kids are nah?they just take off your mind from everything happening around and we just drown ourselves in them.. 

1 lady got in along with 2 young girls..i just noticed 1 gal..she was a bit short and was finding it difficult to balance in the bus.i was siting in the side seat and after few minutes she was almost falling on me. she was cute n lil gundu type.but her eyes was having some problems and i realised only after some time that she was blind.

she was smiling to all and i felt sad seeing her.i really thanked god for giving me vision and i really dint mind even if it was a lil blurred! i had to get dwn @ the next stop..and i wanted her 2 sit in ma place,there was a huge rush in the bus.ma stop was about to arrive and this gal immediatly went towards the steps..i was blank for a sec,her mom shouted.."wer are you rushing to? i told you nah" n blah blah..her voice was very rough and i dint find the slightest affection in her words..

poor gal,she was almost in tears..i got down and finally she too.i couldn't do anything i just watched her till she was out of reach,she walked in hands with her sister. i feel that the blind should be given proper care and attention,just ignoring them won't do...so that they will be able to live by their own,nowadays a no of blind people are living by earning themselves.i still pity that kerala having the highest literacy rate still have people who dont bother to take care of their kids no matter they are handicaped or in proper health..

What is Life?

Life..i feel it is something which leaves you totally blank the more you think about it.At some point of life were everything is going fine and all set,you will have to  leave all those and catch up  ya flight to heaven or hell,dat is a choice which you have 2 make down here..people say life is what you make of it

In ya young stage your priorities will be your studies,small little crushes,friends.From that stage life suddenly takes you to the tension of finding jobs and onnce you get a job,the politics over there is the other problem you are gonna face.

from there you are taken to a state of gambling,i mean choosing partner which is a hell lot of trouble. It is like if you have the luck you choose the right one  else itz all gone..from that stage you become a parent,again the tension of raising a child,his studies,his job,his affairs,his marriage,his kids....

so wat exactly are you doing? you are just repeating the same situation of ya life..then comes a stage of health problems and finally nirvana! all life has got a common ending.even though we can't control the happenings of our life,we can atleast try to keep others cheerful through our lives.one day we will have to face all the problems which we fear,we will have to loose all those which we love,dat is life..totally uncertain!

but if we get all those if we desire,face no tensions,then what is the risk factor? life becomes all boring then.Striving to live is the best part of life.if we can go to our death beds with no fear,we have no regrets about our life.But often people "grow old" with age but forget to "grow up"..so guyz live ya life to the fullest,making the best of every moment and it will turn out beautiful..live and n love it

I wana b a kid...:(

After a hell lot of work at ma home,i am sick...i am dust allergic and im sneezing like anythng now.My nose  is burning and my eyes are watery,well no big deal..

me:    momie,im sick

mom: get some tablets, you willl be fine...

me:    mom,can you sit beside me?

mom: no,you get some sleep

me:    mom,i am still a kid nah?

mom: stop kidding around

*the  end

remember those school days when you get sick,how happy you get thinking...thank god,i can quit school today and you get your mom siting next to you,giving you a teddy to hug,teling you "babe you willl be allright"..oh,i love that. nowadays being in college where you can bunk anyday, getting sick is no fun..it is like," man,i am sik..oh,i hate ds"

i loved bunking classes during  my school days and i became quite an expert in it during my plus 1..i had become a visiting proff.,dats how my teachers used to call me.

My mom used to tease me telling that i cried the  first day  of my school..i told that see mom, i din't want to cry,i cried only because i saw others crying and i thought all have to cry..well,thanx mom..you gave me something 2 post on. 

i  wanna b a kid,it is of no fun living the life of an adult with responsibilities and tensions..though im no longer a kid,im still a kid at heart!!

rock on dudez

Hell down under

Well,i am not refering to mtv roadies...i dont miss t,i feel it is the coolest show on air,all its tasks are bindaas..but i have 2 admit that roadies 1 n 2 had much more tough competants dan now..this season is gonna end and the final 3 were palak,palomi and nauman(im poor in spellings...)

The first two are just for adding masala to the show,like der wasnt any day when palak catch up a fight with her mates,and were palomi din't come up with a lil of extra makeup..the 1 who performs is only nauman,there is a luck factor though..

now for the first time during holidays i got up @ 7..no big deal,i broke a cup full of tea in the very morning..

i  had 2 clean the whole room,mom gave me a lot of works like cleanin up the entire home

and preparing al the dishes for lunch. she tells me that i get up soo late that she is not able 2 giv away any works!

*  wel now itz hell down under for me..

   and for mom: im never,ever gonna get up early :p

   i love doing ma works with music and the song of ma choice will be aye bachchu..

   have a nice day all:)

 

Gal life?

Wot is so damn exciting in being a boy?  well let me answer dat.

~ at home

me: dad, can i go for a shopping plz,itz is so boring staying home all day

dad: no dear,cant let you alone

me: but town is near by nah?

dad: no means,no

d end*

~at college fests 

our col fests occur from eve to the next day dawn..siting in the stadium and wotching the sky is lovely but sitting at the same place for more than 10+ hours,isn't dat acceptable,is t? just because you are a gal,u cant get up from dat damn place..doesnt make any sense 2 me. N d best part is dat im not gona attend any crap programs @ nyt ^ till am in kerala

# now you will tell,see you are a gal,it is not safe enough for you 2 roam around at night,dat is a point

then why dun they shift the programs to dawn?? no1 the hell is ready for that...

~at clas

guy: hey dee,how much does it cost for gals 2 makeup per month

me: pretends im thinking( huh,what the heck man,do i come applying 

        roosh and mascara daily ha??)  

        wel...i dunno 

*some questions are better left unaswered

~ at frn's

guy: so when ya get up during holz..

me: by 9

guy: you are a gal,still you wake up @ 9?

me: janab,when do ya wake up?

guy: by 11 most prbs

me: who the hell told that gals cant get up late and  boys can,huh? 

guy: he he

me: wtz so funny about t,ha?

 

so wot do ya feel,do gals and guyz still get  the same rights? no...i dont! still i love being a gal:) though i admit that being a guy is adorable in a no of ways..

Silly feelings..

i knew when i woke up

it was just an another day without you

i know i had to let you go

erase off all those sweet memories from ma mind

but can i really erase you from ma heart..

may be i never could..

but all that i wana tel

is dat it wasnt for me..

it wiped off ma happiness

it took away ma sleep

ma hope to live...

now i know u hav started to live by your own

n im happy for you..

i wake up n i tell to maself

dat itz just an another day without you...

* nothing personal...,god im a horrible poet..no more poems,i swear!

  update:

  there is a new song from kelly clarkson charted #1 last wek..ma life would suck without you..check out!

Ma new nokia 7210

well i have got a new phone..a latest nokia 7210 supernova..im excited,man i got rid of ma unbreakable nokia 1110,oh..let me rest in peace!!
now itz feautres

* 2G Network GSM 900 / 1800 / 1900
* released - 2008, december
* Size Dimensions 106 x 45 x 10.6 mm
* Weight 69.8 g
* Display Type TFT, 256K colors
* Size 240 x 320 pixels, 2.0 inches
* Ringtones Type Polyphonic (64 channels), MP3
* Customization Download
* Memory Phonebook 2000 entries , Photocall
* Call records 20 dialed, 20 received, 20 missed calls
* Card slot microSD (TransFlash), up to 2GB
- 30 MB internal memory
* Data GPRS Class 32, 88 kbps
* Bluetooth Yes, v2.0 with A2DP
* USB Yes, v2.0 microUSB
* Features Messaging SMS, MMS
* Browser WAP 2.0/xHTML
* Colors Bubble Gum Pink, Vivid Blue
* Camera 2 MP, 1600x1200 pixels, video (QCIF@10fps)
* battery BL-4CT wd up2 5n half hrs f talk tym

well..feautres are all bindaas na?i brought it fr 5.3 + an microsd 1 gb card+ usb cable+ micro sd 2 gb adapter ===> 6.5. 

now i think datz much more profitable than an apple ipod shuffle rated 5.0 which  ma bro gifted me having 1 gb of memory,but one getz absolutely no idea which track z gettin played @ present.I agree itz light weight but ma supernova is damn cool n stylish..

Holidayz..

hey i am back..got 2 months of sem break after 1 n half yrs of enggineering life,sounds pretty cool ha?..but it is damn boring at home.. Now dun ya rate me as a workaholic :)

guess wot i have done these days.i had slept like a log of wood for about 13 hrs per day..can some1 out there beat ma record?? guess..no! i have watched for about 12 moviz in 4 dayz..starting from our own rang dey basanthi..which i have been watching fr d 5th tym..aamir truly rockz,n the picture is just brillant.we youngsters should do something for the nation rather than waiting for others to do it. 

den comes pirates of caribean, i truely fell n love with captain jack sparrow aka jhony depp.d movi z picturised brillant n u hav dis feelin " man y dun i try being a pirate ha?".
well i really cudn't get dwn d hangovr stl. den i watched ds bourne series..smashing n perfectly plotted..

den missed call,d dumpest movi i have watched so far..man,u find dese cell phones ringing evry corner of a damn rum,dat i ran out f oxygen..without a proper story baseline,dat movie horrified ma spirits out. hats ff 2 d director..den i wotched plenty f jackie chan moviz..l funny n entertaining n ts own styl..

nw comes kill bill,d best f all. uma thurman z a goddess yar.loved her soo much dat i wanted a hanso sword f ma own..wana learn martial arts 2,dunno from where!! bth parts 1 n 2..f u truely wana get ff ya anger 2 sm1 out der den tz a must watch. den the other 1 z curious case f benjamin button,thou d story z a bit dragging n boring n d middle..i dint fall asleep cing t,most f ma frnz have!! wel stry z different,t got some element which dragged me in2 t..may b tz brad pitt..wel wateva. the other thing i hv bin doing is orkuttin..i hav given ma account fr deleting a plenty f tyms bt i dunno y t znt getin deleted.

i hav heard tracks from brazilian band sepultura..itz one of the best death metal bands man,al u heavy metal fans go for it..

god !mommie z calin me,i realy hate cookin...so guyz il come up with something interestin soon..till den rock on!!

* i have a habit of typing in short hand hope you guyz done mind....